My Hustle for Worthiness

Oh ladies, this is such a real thing that I thought it was completely appropriate to make this my first "bear trap" of the new blog series.  I can still remember where my hustle for worthiness began. It was 1992, and I was a single parent. I had just survived a difficult marriage (and divorce), so I guess you could say I wasn't at the top of my self-confidence game. I was attending college full-time and working full-time for my parent's cleaning company to make ends meet. Let me just say, before I go any further, that people who clean houses and office buildings for a living have my upmost respect!

I was cleaning an office, once a week, when I noticed that one of the employees began "hiding" tiny pieces of paper and paper clips in strategic locations just to see if I had swept the floor. To add injury to insult, this woman was just not friendly. It was clearly beneath her to speak to the "hired help" because I never received a response anytime I would greet her. When in her presence, she made me feel small. So, when I showed up for any new cleaning gig, my internal dialogue screamed "you are small", and so the hustle began...

I didn’t have any idea what I wanted to do with my life at the time, but I knew I didn't care for being small, so I became a lifetime student, working at least one full-time job, while attending school full-time. I just kept telling myself that if I worked harder than everyone else, earned the grades, and achieved the degrees no one could make me feel small. I eventually earned my Associate, Bachelors, and Masters degrees and I am exceptionally proud of those accomplishments. However, I learned that you can do big things and still feel incredibly small, because happiness really is an inside job. The truth is, that employee never made me feel small, I already felt that way when I walked in the door. I allowed her lack of interaction with me to magnify and validate my own insecurities. And this, my friends, is where the lesson begins...

We do not have to hustle for our worthiness, we were born worthy. I was born for greatness and so were you. Our journey may look quite different, but that is only because we all have different lessons we must learn to arrive where God can use us for His purpose. So, I leave you with a final thought...no matter where people are in their journey, treat everyone as if they are worthy of love and belonging, because they are and you just may be the one to convince them of it!

- Stay Flawesome